I know this forum isn't their for things like this but I needed a place to talk about this and I feel...well socially attached to this forum. I don't feel like I am really wanted or really respected by others but at least I am accepted. I am that guy who is there...

I wanted to write this down because I figured out that I need to do it.
I suffer from depression because I was bullied hard for three years in school and appearently I am still not over it. Many times I was on the brink of killing myself which is no joke - I was completely convinced that I didn't deserve it. I had everything I needed but I wasn't happy and had no friends. I was sure I was just a burden for everyone.

This was one of the must dire stages in my life and it ended at the time in which I met a person while playing Dota who was nice to me and after 20 minutes of thought I sent him a friend invite.
I was sure he would decline but something within me hoped that I could still find a person who would like me, a per…
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