Tera's Digest - Something Wicked

Just a little touch
Cruel dead night victimises
Dread steals away a voice
The cries resound in silence

Taken something I had always had
And wished gone –
Not now, like this
A bloody kiss devours the core
Innocence,
A priceless loss

I see this spectacle unfold
A mute observer watching my defilement
Outside, yet an integral part
Foul display sickens deep inside

Final end arrives and leaves
Reunited with the vessel, I lie
In a pool of filth and shame
Waiting for something to find me

My torment now gestates inside me
For the world to see my expurgation
The thought of the outside tortures me.
Ever be
Cannot flee.
I can’t run from the cancer that’s
Consuming
Abusing
Eats me alive, rips apart
My hoping
Eloping.

Waking in a sweat with the dawn of dark
Cold caress of guilt, pleasure is shame
The sickness has intensified, take me away
The thing ripped from me has been replaced,
Marked me with a living memory.
All my routes are shut but one
Is this freedom we were promised?
They all see me with disgust
My subconscious light has faded

The stars erupt behind my eyes
In a cacophony of pain
Hours drip by into the days-
Fever is rising, higher now
I am torn apart again
A wind takes me from the world
Lifts me, higher, higher now
And carries me away
To paradise.

I’ve looked down the line
And what ought to be there isn’t
And all I can see is the sound of the silence
What did I find in this solitary prison?
Only what left me alone in this darkness

Loner / broken / lost in the night
Found myself in a reverie
Perdition’s touch of purgation
Haemorrhaging thoughts in this state of mind

Outside the cycle
Where the ghosts come to die
Outside the cycle
Out of my mind

Dreaming
The waking kills the meaning
I don’t have to justify
The way I live this living lie

But if my eyes are the dream, I wish I would never see the day
But the grey morning comes, and my eyes are forced open again

Snow sleets over the stone
Memories of what you’ve become
Now I cannot feel the cold
Youth has never felt so old

The memory eclipses me
Snow blankets over black with white
Already I can barely see the stone that marks
What had been once a part of me

The petals wilting
Colour fading
I have never felt alone
Before
The wind is screaming
Light abating
Black roses make me
A deathbed

I thought I was a winter child
Born cruelly in summer
But I had never know what it was to be cold
Till they put you down inside

The petals wilting
Colour fading
I have never felt alone
Before
The wind is screaming
Light abating
Black roses make me
A deathbed

Fading now
Falling down
Finally I’d found
Somewhere I thought that I belonged
But now I’m lost
Among darkness now that you’re gone
Snow stained red

Sleeping in rain
When will you wake
Nothing can soothe
My heartache
The wind still blows

The petals wilting
Colour fading
I have never felt alone
Before
The wind is screaming
Light abating
Black roses make me
A deathbed

Goodbye
Time to die

The petals wilting
Colour fading
Now I know the heart
Of being alone
Tears in the rain
The things that we’d seen
Black roses become
Your deathbed

The dreaming mind, the scythe inside
Wake up dead at dead of night
The part that’s left is what is dead
Who are you that’s in my head?
I feel them pushing at my skin
Clamoring to let me in
This thing inside, insidious crime
Are you me or just my mind?

So get down and bow to me
Like the god I was always meant to be
This life is mine, this silent scream
The driving force you’ll never see

Pressing me, I’m giving way
Till the night come o’er day
Twisting everything I know
Now into the flame I go

The three, the five, the six of me
Caressing me with horrid dream
They whisper me within my brain
Laughing at my growing strain
Schizophrenic social menace
Please God help me, make them leave us
Their numbers I still fail to count,
I’m without hope, I can’t get out

Nothing’s real if it’s not in my mind
And I will not be denied this time
Knowing you I know not me
The loss this life shall set me free

We’re trapped in this psychic waste
In my psychopathic maze
This isn’t life, there’s no escape
Take me, leave me, let me break!
Pressing me, I’m giving way
As the night comes o’er day
Twisting everything I know
Now into the flame I go

Let me be, set me free
Unleash within this twisted dream
Their cackling madness cuts me low
The flame burns higher, shoot, reload!

Pressing me, I’m giving way
Till the night comes o’er day
Twisting everything I know
Now into the flame I go

Pressing me, I’m giving way
Till the night comes o’er day
Twisting everything I know
Now into the flame I go

Think of me
When you’re gone
Remember if you love or not
This emptiness
Ending me
I die in silence with my suffering

I have come too far
To see you go away
Just one more chance occurrence
And you’ll see what I pray
What I pray
What I pray

I’m drowning
Under hopes and my own desires
Save me
From the nothing I have lost
Because I couldn’t pay the cost
And without you I am lost

The loneliness
Is killing me
I’ll die without you or be free
Keeping faith
I will find you
You’re mine not even death can take you

I have slept too long
To let this go to waste
I’ll burn the world to keep you here
And burn on my heart your face!
Go to waste,
Go to waste

I’m falling
Dark calling
Please know me
Unknowing

I’m falling / dark calling
Inside the suffering
Unbroken / love token
This life I yearn to end
I’m falling / dark calling
Inside the suffering
Unbroken / love token
This life I yearn to end